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Spring Issue 2014

The Year Out

‘The Year Out’ is based on my experiences during the year of 2013; a year which put me to the test in many ways and was something I never expected to have to face. We all think we are invincible, that ‘those things’ that happen to others do not happen to us, but for me this year took me out of my comfort zone more than ever before because I simply had to step back and give up control for a year. After just entering my 2nd year at university studying photography, the illness which I had been battling with for years really began to spiral out of control for a number of reasons. By Christmas 2012 I had to submit to the inevitable and leave the life I had created for myself and return home, to take a whole year out to focus on myself, treatment, progress and my health.

During this year I kept a blog, a journal, and used art and photography to document and express all I was going through. At the beginning of 2014 and the turn of the year, it was natural for me to look back at this year of inner struggle, personal victories and development. The opportunity to create work from this experience seemed the natural thing to do.

Working in a solitary way with only a single assistant, these self-portraits explore the feelings and thoughts I experienced during that year out. There are cyclical themes which re-emerge throughout the piece, communicating notions of boundaries, confinement, escape and growth. The craft involved within the darkroom, making each print unique made the piece even more cathartic and draw the images together.

words and photography by Amy Collier from her project The Year Out – 19/03/2014



‘It is a small succession of things, it is constantly battling until gradually the battle becomes more bearable.’



‘There is a safety in this that part of me still clings to, it feels at times so much easier to run to this solitary yet simple existence.’



‘I have to accept that I am a work in progress, but I don’t want to just tick by.’